A Pizza Hut a Pizza Hut, Kentucky Fried Chicken...

...and a Pizza Hut.

Fast Food Rockers, The Fast Food Song

To be quite honest, i just needed to think of a song about food. Because i am:

HUNGRY

STARVING

FAMISHED

DEPRIVED OF FOOD

LACKING IN NUTRIENTS

MALNOURISHED.

or in other words, i havent eaten since.... lunchtime.

and that food smells amazing.

15 minutes left...

I'll leave you with the words of John Mayer.

'I was a killer, was the best they'd ever seen,

I'd steal your heart before you ever heard a thing.

I'm an assassin and i had a job to do,

Little did i know that girl was an assassin too.'

Assassin, John Mayer.

Sounds a little lame, but listen to the song, or in fact the album. Its a real grower, but that song is so amazing.

Adios, nearly food :)

I want to be the one who...

...can dance without being drunk.

Ice Age, Good Shoes.

I'm unsure today.

I think about things, what i want to do, what i WOULD do if i was confident, what i would be able to do if i was confident.

I'm often jealous of those people who are loud and make themselves seen. they get what they want, get with who they want etc.

While i sit there, not UNCONFIDENT as such, but like... quietish. i don't make a big thing of being there, i don't make myself known. Which is why nobody really listens to me. I don't get a say. I enjoy being there, its fun, but i NEVER get to be the centre of attention.

It's nobody's fault. I'm just not the right sorta person. But it means i don't get the credit, i don't get the girls, whatever.

I open up to some people. but the people who dont quite know me, they know me but they dont KNOW ME, they dont see the real me.

If only everybody saw the ME me. not just me.

Man i make so much sense.

But for once my opening lyric fits.

I don't want to end up in a position where i have to have a drink for me to be interesting. people think that about certain people i know, and i think its not good.

I need to properly open up, let ME free. I want to be the life and soul without making any effort, or just being plain drunk. I can do it, i just dont. But i wanna change that.

I want to be the one who can dance without being drunk.

Ice Age, Good Shoes.

Mr Bojangles, come back and dance...

Sammy Davis, Jr (I think, or of course Robbie Williams...)

I love that sorta music. Swing n jazz n blues n stuff like that. Big band stuff. I wish i was around in those days, everything was so swish and fancy and smooth and sleek. Saxophones, Trumpets, maybe not so much Frank Sinatra (although we have a lot to thank him for i guess.)

It's real music. Real effort. Real talent, and also a genuine path to success. Not a telly program. I'm not having a go at the X factor.

Im just trying to say that it isnt what real music is.

Music isnt about getting famous quick, or selling THOUSANDS UPON MILLIONS OF RECORDS. It's about the love, the feeling, the truth. I'm not saying that the people on the X factor don't neccessarily love what they do, but the way it's put across on the telly, it seems as if cowell and co. don't understand what music is really about.

Where did leon jackson(?) go? Or Shane Warne? Or Michelle McManus? Or Alex Parks? Or David Sneddon? Steve somebody?

I only remember the names cos i have a memory for pointless facts, not cos they did anything exciting or important.

They hit the limelight for literally 2 seconds, then disappeared into a nothingness. That's not music.

Ok, so will young made it. but he was the first one, back when it was all a novelty. Like Big Brother, it was an interesting idea to start with.

Leona Lewis has made it as well (so far) because she has a particularly strong talent, coupled with the fact that they REALLY pushed her, and she was accepted in the US.

Kelly Clarkson. BIGGGGG news in the US. but once again, i think she was the first.

It can work occasionally. But I don't think it's the spirit of music. Music should be started in a bedroom or a garage, a group of mates having fun, doing what they want to do, not being forced, just doing it because there's nothing they would rather be doing. It shouldnt take over life, it should just be part of life. People get lucky breaks, get seen by somebody BIG like zane lowe or edith bowman or jo whiley or whoever, and gets played on the radio. If theyre lucky, they get somewhere, have a career. if theyre not so lucky, they carry on enjoying it with their friends, without the public eye. It doesnt matter to them, theyre just having fun, as it should be.

Why throw people in at the deep end? (and invariably leave them there if they arent an instant success...)

I don't know where this is going really.

Good luck to Joe McElderry, you did well. Fucking good voice. WHATEVER YOU DO DON'T LET THEM TURN YOU INTO THE NEW ZAC EFRON (cos thats what they say theyre going to do). Enjoy yourself, you seem a genuine chap. But don't be surprised if it all goes wrong, because once the next big thing comes along you could be left in the gutter, and that would be a big shame.

I want to be a musician. Maybe one day i want to be in a band. i havnt a clue if i would do well, but i would have fun trying, cos thats what music should be.

Not a moneytrain for Captain Cowell, with a generic song or album released as a brief afterthought.

I think the new poster in my room is the epitomy of music.

'And as we wind on down the road

Our shadows taller than our soul
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How everything still turns to gold
And if you listen very hard
The truth will come to you at last
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll .'

Stairway To Heaven, Led Zeppelin.

Try beat that then.

All the while i was dreaming of revelry...

Kings of leon.

I wasn't dreaming of revelry. im not so sure what i WAS dreaming of, but it definitely wasnt revision.

REVISION.

AAAAAAAAAGHHHHHH SDIGJPISDJGIPFJGHPSFHJKS{F.

hate it.

hate revising.

hate exams.

shit scared.

don't tell me otherwise.

i'm gna work so hard.

but its so hard to work hard.

fucking cycle of decline.

FUCKING SPANISH.

BLAHBLAHBLAH HOLA BLAH BLAH ADIOS.

fuck right off senor.

only 6 months to go.

thank god.

then

Reading :D

this will signify happiness and freedom in my life.

a goal to work towards.

to work fucking hard for.

Only have to do this once.

But i have to do it once.

Let's go get it over and done with.

'Adieu.'

Enter Shikari.

If you call me now baby, I'd come running.

Kings of leon. I'm listening to a right mix of music tonight :)

Now this quiz i promised.

I've done it before, but im intrigued how much it will have changed since last time. I've sure changed since then...

---------------LAST PERSON WHO--------------
x. Slept in your bed: Me
x. Saw you cry: Ali Brown
x. Made you cry: myself. :/
x. You shared a drink with: us with our slushpuppies at bowling :)
x. You went to the movies: i havn't been cinema in TIME. i would guess at jazz.
x. You went to the mall with: Yingo
x. Yelled at you: mother as usual.
x. Sent you an email: yingo i think, on that giant facebook message...

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER---------------
x. Have you ever liked someone who hadn't like you?: Wouldn't surprise me.
x. Said "I Love You" and meant it? Indeed.
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: Nahh, ellie don't bite :P
x. Been to California: No
x. Been to Hawaii: No
x. Been to Mexico: No
x. Been to China: No. well sorta. but not really.
x. Been to Canada: Twice. i love it there.
x. Danced naked: possibly...
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day? i think soooo... or maybe it wasnt a dream. :S
x. Do you have a crush on someone: i spose you could say i do. you could also say its NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS.
x. What book are you reading now: i'm too busy sleeping to read.
x. Worst feeling in the world: sorry.
x. Future son's name: NOAH :D
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Nahh, fluffy cushion :P
x. What's under your bed: mah keyboard :D
x. Favorite sport to watch: rowings. or ice hockey :P
x. Siblings: matthieu.
x. Location: my house.
x. College plans: english or german or philosophy. maybe durham or manchester. i dno rly.
x. boyfriend/Girlfriend: No longer. in fact not since about 4 months ago. thats long enough for it not to be wrong to have a new one i think...

------------------------EXTRA STUFF----------------------
x. Do you do drugs: Never. why would you?
x. Do you drink: every now and then, at the odd party...
x. What are you most scared of: disappointment.
x. Where do you want to get married: the church on my road.
x. Who do you really hate: there's nobody i hate, just some people i don't like right now.
x. Been in Love: fraid so.
x. Do you drive: not yet. one more year to go.
x. Do you have a job: to serve and protect ;)
x. Do you like being around people: More than i used to.

----------------------------STUFF---------------------
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: hmm.
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go for? Good people.
x. Want someone you don't have right now: hmm.
x. Are you lonely right now: nahh. i got some good mates around me.
x. Song thats sticks in your head a lot: My friends by the red hot chili peppers.
x. Do you want to get married: one day...
x. Do you want kids: yes.

----------------FAVORITE---------------------
x. Room in house: mine.
x. music: red hot chili peppers FTW
x. Band(s): red hot chili peppers FTW
x. Perfume or cologne?: lynx lol
x. Month: sunny old december.
x. Stone: chalk.

--------------IN THE LAST WEEK, HAVE YOU---------------
x. Cried: yep.
x. Bought something: various things :)
x. Gotten sick: Nearly :S
x. Sang: yep :)
x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: nooo
x. Met someone new: well. yes i guess i did.
x. Missed someone: a bit
x. Hugged someone: yes :) and it was an impressive hug :)
x. Kissed someone: no

----------- I N F O R M A T I O N ------------
Name: Jack Pooley
Status: free as a bird.
Sex: male
Birthday: 2nd december
Sign: saggitarius
Hair color: mousey brown/blond
Eye color: blue
Height: 6ft 2.5in

----------- F A S H I O N | S T U F F --------------
Where is your favorite place to shop for clothes: i dno. next. hmv. topman. new look. H&M
Favorite designer? ummm. i don't know.
What is your sexiest outfit? thats not a man question.
What is your most comfortable outfit? 'loungewear' :)
What do you usually wear? tshirt jeans and greenflash/plimsollllls/vans.

-------------- S P E C I F I C S -------------------
What kind of shampoo do you use? right now i think its timotei.
What are you listening to right now: True Love Way- Kings Of Leon
Who is the last person that called you? let me see. a oui, ma mere.
How many buddies are online right now?: 20.

------------- F A V O R I T E S -----------------
Foods: meatballs.
girls name: umm. random choice: jess
Boys names: Noah.
Subjects in school: Religious Studies
Animals: dog :)

---------------- H A V E | Y O U | E V E R -------------
Given anyone a bath? eww no.
Smoked? I will NEVER do it. don't let me do it. please.
Bungee jumped? no. one day.
Made yourself throw up?: no
Ever been in love? i've been asked this.
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? not purposely.
Cried when someone died? i've never known anyone die.
Done something you regret? in the long run, nothing big. but yes.

------------- fave ---------------------
Music: chili peppers.
Smell: fajitas.
Desktop picture: my rasta hat :)
DVD : rolemodels atm.

--------------- A R E | Y O U ---------------------
Understanding: getting there.
Open-minded: mostly.
Arrogant: please say i'm not, i try so hard not to be.
Insecure: not any more. it isnt good for you.
Random: :)
Hungry: not right now, but usually.
Smart: meh.
Organized: apparently not.
Healthy: yes
Shy: at times
Difficult: i try not to be. but yeh.
Bored easily: occasionally
Obsessed: nah
Angry: no way.
Sad: no.
Happy: right now, yes :)
Hyper: Nah, relaxed actully
Trusting: i hope so.

--------- W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A --------
Kill?: noone
Slap?: noone
Get really wasted with?: everybody, party please :)
Sex it up with: umm wha?

------------------ R A N D O M ---------------------
In the morning Im:tired.
All you need is: a guitar. in the end thats what it comes down to.
Love is: hard.
I dream about: life.
Playing with: my ipod.
What do you notice first in the opposite sex you're into: smile.

--------- W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R ---------------
Coke or Pepsi: i'm not sure.
Flowers or candy: candy for me.
Tall or short: tall.

--------------- W H O ---------------
Makes you laugh the most: lots of people, too many to name :)
Makes you smile: as above :P

-------------- D O | Y O U | E V E R -----------------
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: occasionally ;)
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: i want to know what goes on in their heads. surely life aint that hard really?
Wish you were younger: sometimes.
Cried because someone said something to you? yep.

----------------- N U M B E R --------------
Of times I have had my heart broken: none. it's hurt a lot. but you get over it.
Of CD's I own: itunes says... 508 albums. 5294 songs. 14.6 days. At some point in my life i'm gna start my ipod at the beginning and listen till the end.

Of scars on my body: enough.

I think i've grown up. take a look and see if you agree.

YOU DO IT TO YOURSELF, YOU DO, AND THAT'S WHY IT REALLY HURTS.

Just, Radiohead.

You Kick The Bucket And I'll Swing My Leg.

Yes i stole the list. But they were in alphabetical order, so whatcha gna do?

Anne Williams; YOUUUUUU are very big. I know you so much better now, I thought you were just loud and drama, but you actually make very good conversation when you're not complaining about mrs mcrudd or woteva :P

Andrew Fallow; How many times have i carried you down the corridor? :P you my friend are a legend. even if you are small and like men and arent as good as me at guitar and are an allround crap shit rubbish person. :D i make joke.

Alex Eadie; I have admiration for you. You take so much crap and just deal with it. Kudos.

Alex Hall; First school, nothing's really changed, we still have silly conversations about not much. i spose we dont play magic day anymore, but i do know that in our heart of hearts, we could go back and kill those monsters any day :D

Alex Holbrook; Curly, he is brilliant. Always there when you need him, i feel like i neglect him sometimes, and i feel really bad about that. hes odd but then so am i :P goodgoodgood mate :) thanks for all the rowing :D

Alex Young; YINGOYANGO. I don't know why i didnt really like you at first. i shouldve done, cos you are a great guy. good conversation, sense of humour, normal guy, listens to good music, listens to my rubbish thoughts, the list goes on.

Chris Lambert; I stopped him being a chav :D love chris to bits. Been best of buddies since that first day of year seven, even if he is a NERD. :D

David Ramsden; RAMMMMYYY. i think its harsh how everybody says hes cooler when he's drunk. give him a chance and hes just as cool when hes sober.

Dani Hutchinson; Danidanidanielle hutchinson. I dno. dani is always there, and while we have huge times when we just dont say much to each other, i know that any day i will come back and she will be the same great person that she was all that time ago. maybe a little shy, but i like that-makes a change from stupid attention-seeking idiots who won't shut up. good times in ullswater etc. I think i might donate my octopus, cos i think its just what you're looking for :)

Ellen McEwen; Hmm. EllenMelonMcEwen. I like you actually :) because you are nice. and funny. and you listen to people. and tolerate people. and are kind to people. and take quite a bit of shit from people sometimes, which i think is quite unfair. And as re-discovered on friday, you do good hugs :) we havent talked so much in a while, but you're always around for a laugh. So hi :P

Edward Tiddles: i'm not even gna atttempt the silly surname. Tiddles and me have a strange connection. He pisses me off in such a way that im not actually annoyed at all. does that make sense?

But yeh, how can you not love him? he's just so........ i dont even know. UNIQUE. thats a good word. world wouldnt be the same without our ed. :)

Freddie Jones; maths jokes :) and i miss him actually. doesnt seem to be there anymore :( shame.

Greg Pearson: gregory, i think he's a bit like me in some ways. i dno how to describe it, but greg is the most normal, real, genuine, understanding, proper person i know. and he's fucking funny. :D

Hannah Wallett; I don't really know you much tbh. tis a shame cos your a nice person from what i do know of you. :)

Jasmine Tredget: i dno. i just dont know. something isn't right and i dno what it is. :/

James Hutt; This boy is actually much more of a man than you would think. He is very easy to talk to, and i would probably trust him with a huge amount, cos he wouldnt let me down. he's a very good friend, much appreciated.

Mathew Anderson; Such a funny guy, real gangsta joker child, another person who takes a lot of shit and deals with it. I'm only just starting to know him properly, but even in this short time if seen a great person in him :)

Mathew Inness; Minness, one of those people i've known since year five, yet is not quite one of my friends in a group sense. but hes great, and he is a friend anyway :) funny german times and music times and junior school times :)

Ricky Jones; Used to be quiet, and i didnt get him at all. but then underneath the quiet i found a great guy. very subtly funny and interesting, and he knows a lot of stuff, if that makes sense?

im SURE there's more. i just took this list and filled in the gaps tbh :)

laters.

Used to sit and worry 'bout the future...

...But worrying about the future can't change the past.

Mr Raul Midon sang that. Never heard of anything else he sang, but that song is absolutely finger lickin' good :D

Anyway, it sorta fits. I've realised that I spent a long time trying to fit in. I don't really think I was being me, and I don't think it helped anyway. So now I'm being me, and I might be completely wrong, but i think its working. Those people who were never really MY friends, they were HER friends that I ended up talking to, those people now talk to me like I'm me, not her boyfriend or her ex or whatever. So thats nice :)

Being me has also brought me back to some of my old friends, as well as making me brand new ones. I think friday and saturday made me realise how lucky I am to have so many people who will actually listen to me, talk to me, laugh with/at me etcetcetc. I don't think I've ever had that before. Friday was a shame that we couldn't stay, would've liked to stay and chatted with some of you lovely people, seemed like it would've been a good night. But saturday, I realised what a good load of people you all are :)

I'm gonna leave the past alone. It's happened, good or bad, I'm not letting it affect what I do. I suggest everybody does the same, it clears your head so much if you just ignore what's happened and just concentrate on being yourself :)

I'm in such a good mood :)

I don't know if anyone reads this tbh. but I think I'm gna add a few blogs tonite. A quiz maybe, or a list of friends, or both, or more? I've neglected this place for a while, and if I consider that some of you keep on blogging and letting me read your thoughts, its only fair that I do the same.

So if you DO read any of this, make a comment or something, and I'll reply. You never know, you might just make my day :D

Peace Out.

I feel better now i've seen you, but deep inside my bones feel like timber, and I, am shaking from the tension, and I, will shudder at the mention....

Galaxy of the Lost- Lightspeed Champion. LEGEND.

See, alone we stand, together we fall apart. Yeah, I think I'll be alright, I'm working so I won't have to try so hard. Tables, they turn sometimes

Someday, The Strokes.

Things are changing. Im talking to people i haven't spoken to in ages, and it's good :)

I'm rowing constantly, a good thing really, it makes me tired but it's something to do, and i'm rowing with some pretty cool people.

You may ask me, do i miss her? (or you may not lol). Well maybe i do, but things change. I can't go back there, not a chance. It was the happiest time of my life, and i guess i'm lucky it came to such an easy end in comparison to other relationships. I think people expect us to get back together, but we won't. That's just life, and i can deal with that. It can stay in my mind forever as happy memories of my past, but it's moving on time.

I guess i've changed myself. I'm quieter, i think more, hopefully i'm a little bit wiser about the world than i was before. I think i've grown up in some ways, but there's still a LONG way to go till im no longer a kid inside. I plan to make the most of being young, so this can only be a good thing :)

I don't know where this thought process is taking me right now, so i think i'll just leave you to re-read the jumble that i just wrote and think it through for yourself. I'll be right here, sitting with a feeling of tired but contentness, and a smile on my face. Things may have changed, but that doesn't mean i can't carry on with my life in the way that i want to.

:)

My lyrics today don't have any connection to what i wrote, but if you wanna make some connections yourself feel free to do so.

'I missed the last bus, I'll take the next train, i try but you see it's hard to explain. I say the right things but act the wrong way,i like where i am but i cannot stay. I watch the TV, forget what im told, and i am too young and they are too old, the joke is on you, this bliss is a zoo (?), you're right its true...'

Hard To Explain, The Strokes

(The observant among you may note that i'm into the strokes right now :)

quizzo i stole off jazzzz

---------------LAST PERSON WHO--------------
x. Slept in your bed: strangely enough, me!
x. Saw you cry: i dont cry in front of people...
x. Made you cry: the whole world. nobody in particular, just a situation...
x. You shared a drink with: adam and jake stoakes
x. You went to the movies: jasmine :)
x. You went to the mall with: Smiffy
x. Yelled at you: mother.
x. Sent you an email: windows live...

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER---------------
x. Have you ever liked someone who hadn't like you?: Yepp
x. Said "I Love You" and meant it? yesss
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: Nope, my dog is the least aggressive animal in the world...
x. Been to California: Nope
x. Been to Hawaii: Nope
x. Been to Mexico: Nope
x. Been to China: Nope
x. Been to Canada: ayeeeeeessss :) twice. amazing place :D
x. Danced naked: nope.
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day? not that i can remember...
x. Do you have a crush on someone: no. it doesnt work like that. you have a crush on someone until your going out with them. theyre two separate things... lol
x. What book are you reading now: do not pass go- its some book about a guy who goes to all the places on the monopoly board :)
x. Worst feeling in the world: anticipation
x. Future son's name: not a clue.
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Nein
x. What's under your bed: my retro keyboard, shoes, lego (i think...)
x. Favorite sport to watch: rugby or football or rowing :)
x. Siblings: meinen bruder
x. Location: clpham
x. College plans: i wanna go to scotland :)
x. boyfriend/Girlfriend: i gotta girlfriend :)

------------------------EXTRA STUFF----------------------
x. Do you do drugs: Nope
x. Do you drink: occasionally
x. What are you most scared of: Jack Pooley fears NOTHING.
x. Where do you want to get married: in a church. perhaps the one in olney. or the one just down the road....
x. Who do you really hate: society... lol nobody really
x. Been in Love: yepp
x. Do you drive: im sure i could if i tried
x. Do you have a job: paper round?
x. Do you like being around people: Usuallly

----------------------------STUFF---------------------
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: i guess so
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go for? Not really
x. Want someone you don't have right now: wish she was here...
x. Are you lonely right now: No way
x. Song thats sticks in your head a lot: at the moment, "im on a boat', 'skeleton boy', 'in the hospital' and 'colourful life'. you can fill in the artists yourself.
x. Do you want to get married: hmmm. probably
x. Do you want kids: hmm. probably

----------------FAVORITE---------------------
x. Room in house: mine, or the lounge
x. music: red hot chilis are the alltime favourite :)
x. Band(s): " " " " "
x. Perfume or cologne?: neither?
x. Month: decemberrrrrr :)
x. Stone: marble :D

--------------IN THE LAST WEEK, HAVE YOU---------------
x. Cried: No.
x. Bought something: Yes.
x. Gotten sick: No.
x. Sang: im sure i have
x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: yep and i did :)
x. Met someone new: No i dont think i did.
x. Missed someone: yes.
x. Hugged someone: yes.
x. Kissed someone: yes.

----------- I N F O R M A T I O N ------------
Name: Jack Pooley
Status: In a relationship
Sex: male
Birthday: 2nd december
Sign: saggitarius
Hair color: mousey brown/blond
Eye color: blue :D
Height: bare tall, like 6ft2 :)

----------- F A S H I O N | S T U F F --------------
Where is your favorite place to shop for clothes: next, hmv, tkmaxx :)
Favorite designer? paul frank :)
What is your sexiest outfit? im not sexy lol
What is your most comfortable outfit? hoody tshirt boardies flippies :)
What do you usually wear? tshirt jeans and greenflash/plimsollllls

-------------- S P E C I F I C S -------------------
What kind of shampoo do you use? herbal essences
What are you listening to right now: Slow down jessica-the ruskins
Who is the last person that called you? my dad
How many buddies are online right now?: not a clue.

------------- F A V O R I T E S -----------------
Foods: fajitas or steak
girls name: jasmine
Boys names: jack
Subjects in school: muzac :)
Animals: doggie :)

---------------- H A V E | Y O U | E V E R -------------
Given anyone a bath? dont think so...
Smoked? No wayyy
Bungee jumped? i wish..
Made yourself throw up?: ive tried but failed lol
Ever been in love? yepp
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? i didnt make myself, i just cried a lot when i was little
Cried when someone died? err my rabbit when i was about 5 lol
Done something you regret? one or two :/

------------- fave ---------------------
Music: chilis
Smell: bacon sarnies :) or fajitas
Desktop picture: us in brighton
DVD : school of rock :D

--------------- A R E | Y O U ---------------------
Understanding: i would say so
Open-minded: most of the time
Arrogant: i try my best not to be
Insecure: i dont think i am
Random: yesssss :)
Hungry: no i just ate dinner, jelly and ice cream :D luv it.
Smart: i guess
Organized: 50/50
Healthy: yeahhh
Shy: sorta...
Difficult: apparently i can be. i get it from my mum lol
Bored easily: nah not rly.
Obsessed: no
Angry: no
Sad: no
Happy: yes
Hyper: Nop
Trusting: meh most of the time

--------- W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A --------
Kill?: nobody
Slap?: nobody
Get really wasted with?: chris, just to see what all the fuss is about lol
Sex it up with: .....

------------------ R A N D O M ---------------------
In the morning Im:not hungry
All you need is: a guitar and a feeling :)
Love is: just a game (magic numbers :D)
I dream about: i can never remember lol
Playing with: my mind
What do you notice first in the opposite sex you're into: umm, face/hair.

--------- W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R ---------------
Coke or Pepsi: PEPSI :D
Flowers or candy: CANDYYYY
Tall or short: tall ofc

--------------- W H O ---------------
Makes you laugh the most: hmmm... sweeting or munno :)
Makes you smile: everyone

-------------- D O | Y O U | E V E R -----------------
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: not really anymore, ive gone off msn
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: nahhhhh. men are much cooler
Wish you were younger: yepp. :/
Cried because someone said something to you? sure i havee

----------------- N U M B E R --------------
Of times I have had my heart broken: zero?
Of CD's I own: according to itunes, 469 albumsss.... i doubt it tho...
Of scars on my body: a few :)

tap on my window, knock on my door...

...i want to make her feel beautiful...

how the fuck i can do that i dont know.
i try my hardest but perhaps im just not so good at this kind of thing.

i dont know why im frustrated with everyone atm.
i mean, theyre all so nice to me. but theres just something that makes me think, much as everybody's so kind, i dont really fit in. its the times i sit there, saying nothing, nobody really noticing me. or when theyre all talking about something, and i dont know what theyre talking about, yet nobody will tell me. and i probably bring it upon myself for not being there most of the time. im not there when things happen, i always hear it from someone else. i try so hard to be everywhere but its impossible. people dont understand. they put up with it, but they never quite understand the position i'm in. so thanks for everyone persevering with me even when it looks like my priorities are all wrong. i'm trying, and i hope you all appreciate that. if you were in my shoes, it would be just as hard.

Everybody's changing and i dont feel the same.
Keane

What happened to my group of friends? i mean yeh, me and jazz obv, and then on the other side of the spectrum, me, munno, sweeting, hunter. but what happened to everyone else? Ullswater? the year 9 crew as it were? its really weird, i felt like i was stuck in the middle before, but now its like, twice that.

GAH
Im so happy
yet so confused by everybody
and so unsure of where i stand.

Such is life.

but i wouldnt change it for anything

i lost the sacred feeling, but, i made a couple of friends, oh things have never looked so good, and things have never been so clear......
maybe not so true. but right now, im not quite sure what is relevant.
i must be in a transition between happinesses...
Hope so.

Much Love
x

You're the catalyst that makes things faster...

...Amylase will dry up the plaster.

Cajun Dance Party
:)

I might actually write something meaningful on here tonight. but then again, i might not.
hehe.

adios!

Toothpaste Kisses.

'Cradle me,

I'll cradle you,

I'll win your heart

with a Whit-Whoo.

Pretty shapes, just for your eyes.

So with two-faced kisses and lies,

I'll be yours and you'll be...

Lay with me,

I'll lay with you,

We'll do the things

that lovers do,

Put the stars in our eyes.

And with heart-shaped bruises,

And late night kisses,

Divine.'

The Maccabees once again have stolen my heart.

I dont lack ambition, i just get full of trepidation.....

This one is just a little heads up, even though i know you will all ignore me.

Listen

To

This

Band

Because

They

Are

Well

Good

:)

Audio.Video.Disco.

Hey Oh, Listen What I Say Oh

Yes, that is a reference to the red hot chili peppers (btw that song is overplayed).

More to the point it is a reference to SNOW :D

I was forced to go to school this morning, even though it was snowing. And i thought i would get there, and then be sent back home. Alas, no, i ended up sitting through spanish, geography and a silly assembly before i got to go home.

From that point onwards it was a good day.

Me sweeting andy munno went to sainsburys. then had a snowball fight on the way home. then went to the shop in clapham. then we watched tv, but eventually after realising it was tipping it down with snow we ventured back into the cold.

You shouldve seen our snowman. it was HUGE. actually, i just added it in, and its at the top of the blog :) That bottom bit took about an hour to make and 3 of us had to push it. But it was the funnest day in AGES. other than saturday. and of course SUNDAY. this weekend has been amazing. :)

:D

:P

:)

Back with another one of those Blog Rockin Beats :D

That up there is a lyric from the chemical brothers :) its actually block rockin beats, but it sorta fitted. And also it suits my current taste in music-any good dance music (prodigy, fatboy slim, basement jaxx, chemical brothers etc). Its all really upbeat and it makes me jump about like a madman on steroids. Saying that, it wont stop me getting out a bit of my 'indie' music (luvin the hoosiers and stereophonics atm) or maybe even some SALSA (hehe jazz :P).

ANYWHO im here to write about my weekend. It was rather good actually. Let me display it as a timetable.

FRIDAY:

I did whatever lessons i had. and had guitar lesson, good as usual. Then i came home and did my hwk, knowing i would be busy ALL weekend. i think i watched hustle as well. not a very eventful day, more just preparation for the weekend.

SATURDAY:

I got up late, about nine. ate some croissants for the first time in months and remembered why i dont like them. filled a hole tho. i made sure i had everything i needed and at about quarter past ten departed for the flagpole to meet the rest of the rowers. we jumped in the car and i managed to call the front seat, meaning i didnt have to try and squeeze all 6ft 2 of me into the back of the silly people carrier that the school seems to have bought for no reason whatsoever. We sat there for AGES on the way to hampton. i sat and chatted to doug about all sorts of stuff-dougs a bit of a legend really, and a wicked coach :)

We arrived and it was cold, but we had our new hoodys so we were ok. it wasnt long till we were racing. 3km warmup then 3km race with a headwind. GOD it was hard work, but it felt the fastest we had rowed, and we were confident of a good time.

We went to the molesley boathouse for the results later on, after shouting for the j16 boats. We didnt think we were going to win, because borlase and westminster both looked good on the water, and borlase had beaten us in wallingford. Then there was the wildcard of bedford school-yes they havnt done much rowing but they were bound to be fast, they always are.

The man seemed to read out every other result before he came to ours. EVENTUALLY he reached J15 eights. Second place was westminster-they had looked fast but todd thought we'd gained on them. Surely borlase or bedford would win? The man started to anounce it.

'B-' that could be any of us?

'Bedford-' surely its not us?

'Bedford Modern School.'

Seriously, you shouldve heard us cheer. I mean, that was a seriously good win for us, and its put us in contention for nat schools medals? PLEASE :D

ANYWAY enough of my rowing talks.

SUNDAY:

I have been looking forward to today ALL WEEK. But first we have a game of rugby to win. 

had to go all the way to beaconsfield, just for the sake of winning a rugby match. 

and yes we definitely won. 

i think it was about 57-5? 

piss easy :P 

got smacked in the face tho and it HURT.

that could have been the highlight of my day if it wasnt for the small matter of jasmine coming round. this was an important one because it was the last chance for her to come round till after half term :( 

i was seriously hoping for a good day, and i wasnt disappointed :)

We watched a MOOOOOOOOVVVVIIIIEEEEE which was well good-pursuit of happyness, if you havnt seen it, watch it-its amazing. And YES greg (and others) i did actually see all of the movie (well NEARLY all of it ;).

Then we had dinner. with my parents. who are the most embarassing people in the world. It couldve gone horribly wrong, but SOMEHOW it all went fine :)

also i taught jasmine to salsa :P

amongst other things.

And THANK THE LORD she liked her present :) PHEW.

It was a seriously good day.

And a seriously good weekend.

And i found a new song to listen to:

Newton Faulkner-foundations (off live lounge 3)

'my fingertips are moulding into the shape of a crustacean, and i try to play with lego but i can't.'

Isn't that just BRILLIANT?

Ly

x

Owwwww.

this title better not become a regular occurrence :S

It's weird how someone else being upset or in a bad mood can immediately make you feel the same.

When someone you love feels like shit, and you havent a clue how to try and make them feel better, what do you do? I'm crap at it, i try my hardest but to no avail. sorry.

Everybody has those times where your head spins round and round and you worry about everything and nothing makes sense and everything seems wrong. I have been through it too many times, and i hate it. but i hate it more seeing someone else go through it. because it happens to me so much i've learnt to ignore it and move on, but i cant try and tell that to other people cos everybody is different and my way of dealing with it could be miles different to everyone else.

For once in my life its not me worrying. I usually worry about work, friends, love, how people see me, how i act, rowing, rugby, everything. Right now i have got to the point where i dont want to worry because it will spoil my good mood. I have everything i could want, i dont want to lose it now.

Don't wake me up, i don't want this dream to end.

Lostprophets speak the words of genius there.

If everything explodes in my face, i'll look back to now and remember the best time of my life. but i dont want memories, i want reality.

Love you, more than anything.

x

Officially the oddest conversation i have ever had ever.

I'll just throw in what im listening to:

Oh shes such a charmer, oh no.

Oh she stole my karma, oh no.

Sold it to the farmer, oh no.

OH shes always lookin at me, WHOA shes always lookin at me,

shes such a charmer, oh no.

Actually LOVE this song. and Kings of Leon in general

:)

Laters coolkids.

Owwwww.

I don't think you can even realise how much this annoys/angers/saddens me.

Yes i enjoy rowing. a lot.

But perhaps i have a SOCIAL LIFE? 

nah doubt you have a clue what that means.

:(

That and then im skiing at half term, not that im complaining, but it all adds up.

shall have to resort to sundays. thats how bad it is.

SORRRY :(

x

:)

You might make my piano lesson a misery but i'm not going to let that spoil my fun.

Sorry for looking so depressed, i was pissed off.

Thankyou for helping me smile :) u really are the best.

Smiles keep me sane.

Smiles and music :P

I don't really know what to write today.

Today held no inspiration. It wasn't bad but wasn't great.

But to be honest it doesn't matter because inside i am on top of the world.

And I'm not going to let anything spoil that.

So screw you mr piano teacher, i don't want to play your boring music, I'd much rather learn some real music. 'YOU NEED MORE DISCIPLINE'. Or perhaps its that i dont care, I have better things to think about than playing scales and stupid classical music.

Shameful thing is i will turn up next week and go through the same thing.

All in the name of becoming a better musician.

I must be crazy.

Gah im giving myself a headache because im a happy man, yet people seem to be out to spoil my fun.

I told you this blog had no direction or meaning. I seem to ramble on and on and make no sense whatsoever. I'm just gonna throw in a random lyric and leave before i write any more rubbish LOL

I'm not sleeping at night, but i'm going from bar to bar, why can't we just rewind? why can't we just rewind?

That is the least relevant thing i've written in my life. But Paolo Nutini ain't half bad at writing music, so i'm not complaining.

Come back next time and i might have some sense to speak.... :D

Long time, no see.

I havent been here in AGES-i lost my email address and password, just took a wild guess today and got them both right at last :D

OK Before i go on to talk about whatever i want, first i take a look at what is playing right now on my iTunes.........

'Who Wants to Live Forever?' by Queen. What an epic song. It's kinda sad though when you realise that Freddy Mercury wrote this when he was at death's door-look at him in the video and he was barely a skeleton of his former self. AIDS is such a cruel thing, and the world lost one of its greatest men when Freddy died.

But this is making me sound depressed, and actually I'm quite the opposite right now. In fact the next song that has just appeared is a bit more relevant-'And you're rushing headlong, you got a new goal, you're rushing headlong out of control'. Yes i know, i'm listening to Queen Greatest Hits and wondering quite why i don't listen to it more often. Headlong seems to reference my new rush of energy, my optimism and my downright happiness right now. Wondering why so happy? Let me explain a bit (but you can fill in the names yourself).

OK so New Year's Eve/Day i'm thinking what could possibly happen today? And then Midnight arrives and i get my bit of fun, followed by an extremely tense and awkward moment, inconveniently corresponding with what seemed to be the world's largest stomach ache. The year had definitely started with surprise, but not in a good way it seemed.

I spent the rest of the night/day very confused as to what was happening... i mean, talk about mixed messages! I finished the new year time no more knowledgeable, altho slightly warmer courtesy of a rather long and unexpected hug/being used as a pillow (which was nice but didnt half add to my confusion :S).

After that i wasn't sure what to do. I was in the position where i hadnt a clue if someone liked me or not, nor did i know what to do about it. Advice flew my way from every direction, but eventually i settled on inviting her round for what is affectionately known as a 'Thursday Rave' (long story, but they are usually the highlight of the week).

No need to go through details of said thursday rave (seriously it has nothing to do with actual raves im not a badman), but at the end of the day I had a clear mind, a smile on my face and a beautiful new girlfriend :)

Since then the smile has barely faded. Yes i got a bit paranoid, but thats just me. Never realised i would be this happy. In fact i wasnt planning on writing this but it just came up in a thought rather spontaneously. 

OK so here is a little description of somebody i know.

She is sooooooo pretty (dont let ANYONE tell you any different, theyre just jealous).

She makes me laugh too much and i end up doing my stupidly huge grin which i reserve for a few special people (if you see my special grin you are defo one of my bezzies :P)

She is nicer than a nice girl from niceland. gah nice is a crap word. Right, shes amazing instead of nice. Amazinger than an amazing girl from amazingland.

She gives the best hugs when your in need of a hug or just when you feel like one for the sake of it :)

Unlike some people, she listens to me as another normal person, not just some inferior nerd or weirdo.

Yes, i know you say love is a strong word, and i know it hasnt been very long, but i dnt rly care. I love her.

Apparently I'm besotted

And apparently she's urban.

i think i know which of those is the more true,

and it doesnt involve her waving her arms round trying to look like a gangsta.

OK so that was a little unexpected. Thats what i love about this blogging, it's so instant, so off the tip of your tongue. You can speak your mind, let your thoughts flow onto the page, throw everything into the open. 

I'm coming to the end of the path of words that's been flowing through my head, and in parallel time with this, Queen Greatest Hits has just reached it's pinnacle and climax: 

'GIMME GIMME GIMME FRIED CHICKEN.'

The words of a genius.

Ciao.