tap on my window, knock on my door...

...i want to make her feel beautiful...

how the fuck i can do that i dont know.
i try my hardest but perhaps im just not so good at this kind of thing.

i dont know why im frustrated with everyone atm.
i mean, theyre all so nice to me. but theres just something that makes me think, much as everybody's so kind, i dont really fit in. its the times i sit there, saying nothing, nobody really noticing me. or when theyre all talking about something, and i dont know what theyre talking about, yet nobody will tell me. and i probably bring it upon myself for not being there most of the time. im not there when things happen, i always hear it from someone else. i try so hard to be everywhere but its impossible. people dont understand. they put up with it, but they never quite understand the position i'm in. so thanks for everyone persevering with me even when it looks like my priorities are all wrong. i'm trying, and i hope you all appreciate that. if you were in my shoes, it would be just as hard.

Everybody's changing and i dont feel the same.
Keane

What happened to my group of friends? i mean yeh, me and jazz obv, and then on the other side of the spectrum, me, munno, sweeting, hunter. but what happened to everyone else? Ullswater? the year 9 crew as it were? its really weird, i felt like i was stuck in the middle before, but now its like, twice that.

GAH
Im so happy
yet so confused by everybody
and so unsure of where i stand.

Such is life.

but i wouldnt change it for anything

i lost the sacred feeling, but, i made a couple of friends, oh things have never looked so good, and things have never been so clear......
maybe not so true. but right now, im not quite sure what is relevant.
i must be in a transition between happinesses...
Hope so.

Much Love
x

You're the catalyst that makes things faster...

...Amylase will dry up the plaster.

Cajun Dance Party
:)

I might actually write something meaningful on here tonight. but then again, i might not.
hehe.

adios!